Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Put down your camera, this is your LIFE!

It's got nothing to do with being a perfect, goody-goody, selfless, sacrificing, spiritual saint, Holland. Blah! That whole characterization was meant for a different audience at a different time, and they really had issues.

It's got everything to do with being yourself, trusting the magic, following your heart, dreaming big, and having fun.

Hosanna in the highest, 
 The Universe


Sitting on the plane, on my way back to Prague – that Old Crone, that silly city, that home for parties and good beer, that place I wanted to run from initially and the place that I now am running from Rome to rejoin with, happily (poor grammar, I know. First person to fiz it WINS. Hope? Kyle?)

I mean, I can’t believe it. Around this time 2 months ago [or even, say, a month ago] I was crying everyday. In out, up down, all around and I was just wishing I had done this or that better because I thought that was the answer to happiness, as I’m finding in this moment (no forevers, kids) is to simply be IN. THIS. MOMENT. NOW. Happy, sad, loving, breathing, analyzing, creating, EXPERIENCING.

My career is based on being someone who has experience and boy, have I done that! And it’s not over.
I am watching street after street, building after building of beauty and wealth – immense and ridiculous wealth. I know that next semester I will experience a whole new and different world of “without.”

And we are still not different. Maybe I’ll change my mind next semester but I truly believe we people are similar in many ways and KARMA is real. It’ll kick you in the butt sometimes suddenly and sometimes a long time after you’ve taken a certain actions. Especially when speaking thought to action. What I mean is, every action begins with you. You think something, you feel something, you say something and it becomes Truth. We are more powerful than we believe.

It’s like in Musical Theater: every piece is one step bigger than the last and each builds on the last: when speaking isn’t enough, you sing. When singing isn’t enough, you dance. I mean, I would put them in the order of speak-dance-sing, but there’s no real textual evidence for that anywhere.

Musings From Above:

...Naturally occurring bodies are not used often but we know them.
How do we reconcile art and life?
Is one separate from the other?

I will miss this feeling. So sure of everything because so uninhibited.
And young...

Thinking brand new thoughts that you've never thought before, Holland, is wildly more conducive to creating big life changes than just thinking different varieties of the same old thoughts. -The Universe


  1. Is that at the bottom some Holland poetry?! I love it. So young. Yes, indeed, and never again.

    Saw "Oliver!" in London with non-theater-y people. Missed you a lot. DAMN I love musical theater. Particularly when you are starring in it, so do more of that pretty please?

    Also got your holiday gift in London, so that means I have to see you. When are you going to OC during WT?

    And, oh man, I HATE reminders that I have to face Oberlin without you next semester. OH MAN.


  2. P.S. The grammar's not so bad. But it is 4:30 am so I am not at my verbal best.

  3. i've read this post about 4 times now and each and every time it makes me smile!!!